Dear Andrew,

I think about you every second of every day.  I am so sorry that I couldn't protect you while you were inside of me.  I think you hear me apologize to you everyday when I visit your grave but I can't apologize enough.  I was supposed to be able to keep you safe.  I was supposed to watch out for you.  I did my best and it just wasn't good enough and for that I will be forever sorry.

I love you so much and miss you everyday.  I know people have told me that you get used to living with the grief but it seems so unfair that life should go on without you.  How does everything keep moving along when you've died?  It makes me so angry.  We should have a baby that is nearly three months old.  Instead we have a nursery collecting dust and a grave to visit.

My heart and soul aches without you and I struggle day to day.  You were my world while you were alive and part of me died the day you died.  I will never be the same but I would never wish you away.  I cherish every moment I had with you.  I just wish there were more of them and I wish I had spent more time talking to you and loving you while you were here.