Dear Andrew,

A year ago today was the last day that you were alive.  I didn't know it at the time but it was the last full day that I would feel your kicks and be the old me.  The happy and naïve pregnant me without a worry.  A year ago tomorrow my life changed completely which in turn changed me completely.

Today we have the scan for your little brother to find out if he is doing ok.  I can't believe a year ago I was so excited to meet you and now we are trying to have faith that we will get to meet your brother.  I can't believe what a difference a year makes.

A year later and I still miss you like it was yesterday.  I love you so much.