Dear Andrew,

I was rocking your brother in the chair, looking at him when it hit me how much I miss you.

Your brother makes all these noises while he is sleeping. Would you have done this?

Your brother only will sleep on your father and I. Would you have been like this?

So many questions that I'll never get the answer to. Once Liam was born I had nothing to compare the two of you. We didn't experience anything after you were born except grief. So as he grows there is less to remind me of you. The only comfort I have is that he is the only one who has lived where you have lived. You have that in common and it can never change. Even with your brother here I still  miss you more than I can put into words.

I love you so much.