Dear Andrew,

Happy Valentine's day.  Your dad gave me a lovely card today that included both you and your little brother or sister.  It was nice to see you included in these holidays.  I miss you so much.  We're going to come visit you tomorrow and make sure all this weather hasn't messed up your box too much.

Last Saturday was 8 months since your birth/death.  It hasn't gotten easier and some days are so hard.  I find myself being so emotional about your loss.  I don't know if its the hormones from your brother/sister but I am way more emotional than I was a few months ago.  Being back at work and thinking about what we should be doing is so hard and most days I don't want to accept that it has happened to me.  Most days I'd love to stay wrapped up in our house.  In this cocoon where I feel safe.  Where I don't have to worry about running into people.  Where I don't have to worry about what I'm going to say to people or how they are going to react.  But I guess that wouldn't be living.  And we've learned in the past eight months that life doesn't stop just because you died even though we would like it too.

We love you and miss you everyday.