Dear Andrew,

I don't know if it's possible but as the time passes I feel like I miss you more.  I feel like your presence is missed more and more with every day, week, and month that passes.  Maybe I was just so emotionally overwhelmed by what happened that I'm only now processing it fully.

I just want to know why we didn't get to keep you.  Why did we go through 41 weeks and lose you the day before you were born?  I just can't get my head around what we did to deserve this.  I loved having you but the pain is unbearable sometimes.   We should have an eight and a half month old baby crawling around the house.  Instead we have all the pictures we will ever have of you and an empty nursery that has never been used.

I miss you so much and love you and am so sad without you.