Dear Andrew,

One year ago today we took a test that told us you were in our lives.  I had suspected it for a week or so but kept putting off testing.  I was afraid to face the fact that you were here!

One year ago I snuck out of the house and bought a pregnancy test.  I came home, took it, and saw that it was positive.  I was scared but so happy.  You were conceived a little earlier than we planned but I didn't care.  I was ready to have a family with your father.  So I went into the other room and asked your father to pause his videogame.  He still laughs about it.  I was sick to my stomach but told him we were having a baby!

Your father was shocked but so excited.  It was not the reaction I was expecting and it made everything better.  I don't know why I was afraid now.  We'd been together five years at that point...you'd think I would know better!  But your father always surprises me with the love and support he gives me daily.  He said we were ready for you and that nothing was better news than this.  That was the start of nine months of happiness with you as our little family grew. 

So, one year later I want you to know everyday something reminds me of you.  Whether it be an anniversary or a song or just a feeling.  I am always thinking of you and always loving you.