Dear Andrew,

Your God father is getting married next weekend.  I'm so happy for the two of them....I've never met two people more suited for each other than your Aunt and Uncle.  But it's also a time of sadness.  You were supposed to be in the wedding.  We were going to get you a little suit and everyone was so excited to have you there to fawn over.  Now there will be this hole where you should be.  It'll be the unspoken grief of the wedding.  And I feel bad that what happened to you and to us in impacting their day.  This is supposed to be their big day but it's tinged with sadness.  I suppose a lot of what we do now is.  It's amazing how such a tiny person has created such a big hole in our lives.  Not just mine but your father's, your grandparents, your aunts and uncles, and your cousins.  You are missed everywhere we go and constantly thought of and mentioned in conversation.

I have this incredible guilt and slight panic at the thought of leaving your grave for a whole week without any visit from me or your father.  I know it's ridiculous since you are always with us but I don't like the thought of no one visiting you for a week.  It makes me worry that you are lonely or think we've abandoned you.  Please don't think that and know that you will be on my mind the whole time we are away.

I love you.